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this isnt sumthing that i like dealing with...its the self imposed exile that comes after sumthing BIG happens...like a break up, a fight, or a burned bridge between friends. this exile makes me feel as if..im the only one in this world who can stand me...the only person who wants to be around me..as you can see...I DONT LIKE THIS FEELING..the feeling of being alone, abandoned, and all around shitty. today i feel like this, its pretty common for me tho..not to say that im used to it, but it happens alot. so the best thing i can do for myself is write it down and let it out as if the pad is my closest friend, girlfriend, my sibling, or my parents. its the only thing that understands my struggle, that and music. music in itself lifts my overall mood. whether its hip hop, or metal its a real OUTLET for my feelings and for me to let loose wut ales my mind. all in all, i gotta get outta this place im at the most, because being here is not helping anything at all. i gotta pick myself up by my boot straps and get my life tagetha...MAKIN MOVES