The Common Misconception of God's basic conception....was that he was conceived.

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For the past couple of days I've been yearning for sometime to myself. Sometime to think, to really take a look at who i truly am as, a man. As a man who knows what life was, what life is, and who knows what to look forward to. Seeing these things, i wonder, should i begin to think ahead for my future, remembering what happened to my past? Or should i negate my past and live as if the moments are new? with this question comes the answer time..and with time comes experience. what have i learned from past mistakes? from those mistakes, what knowledge did i acquire? How should this same problem as before be resolved? i met a girl today, who at the moment i thought was my age, turned out to be way older, eight years older to be exact. This girl, after having a long "life goal" conversation, said that she was disappointed at me for failing a class, when she herself was failing a few of her classes. Me hearing that made me realize, in a sense, shes right about being mad at me, why am i failing this class, why am i doing this shit to myself why cant i get it right for once? its not like im stupid or retarded or something. Im fully capable of doing great, but i guess ive become complacent with where i am to the point where i didnt know how bad it was getting. so ive kinda taken her cynical type of knowledge and used it for my benefit. i dont want the worst to happen and im not ready to take it on, i want to take it and adapt to the change and be able to make it my own. TIME FOR A FUCKING CHANGE!!!